The Aftermath...

A...ahaha...

Well I quit. I told my mom last minute (the night before my last day and before I headed to bed). She asked me if I told my co-worker yet and I answered 'yes' and... that was it. I didn't look back, she didn't say anything else.



After I came home from the last day of work there, I was greeted by a scowl. She was completely annoyed and got easily irritated. No one mentioned anything about my job. She barely spoke to me at dinner. My parents left a bit later after to a fellowship event. I also left the house to watch a movie... Hide and Seek to be exact. It was an okay movie. Frequently throughout the movie, I wondered when it'd end because it felt too long. But a good bubble tea @ SOHO made everything better! Especially one with aloe vera <3 Not to mention, midnight snacks were welcomed with an open stomach. ^^ And then I got a call from my mom with an unwelcoming voice to ask where I was. When I finally got home, I was once again greeted with an unpleasant face (you see where this is going? :/).



Today, our whole family went out for a Korean food. The job subject was at hand. About my brother's job and while on the topic, I was mentioned as "...unlike this stupid one here." They were on the topic of quitting jobs apparently. Yes perhaps I should have quit when I found another job so it'd cover what I'll be missing, but day by day, the longer I stayed... the more meaningless and frustating it got. But of course, there's no way something like this can be explained to my mother. And a Chinese mother at that. Their narrow-minded views, ideals and everything. It's not like talking to her will help because she'll just take over the conversation and it'll become a lecture more than anything.



This awkard tension between us is bothering me. Anything I say or do right now just pisses her off. She still talks to me... er I mean, she doesn't exactly talk to me, she just says like a line of command or something and that's it (e.g. "Wake up tomorrow and go to church."). She hasn't spoken to me about anything about what I'm going to do from now on or anything. I don't know what to expect. I still act normally (well, there's nothing to hide or anything though so).... It's just that I can't look at her straight in the eye. I also have nothing to say to her either. I suppose she has nothing to say to me too. Is she trying to make me feel like I've done something wrong and I should go back or something? Her attitude hasn't made me feel otherwise about my decision though. Man, hurry up and come Tuesday. Get the job and hopefully change the current situation. That is... speaking with an optimistic approach.